things i wish

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by blacknblue, Apr 25, 2016.

  1. blacknblue

    blacknblue Well-Known Member

    My life has probably been more difficult than some and easier than others. If I could go back I wish I would have taken better care of me heart. I opened it easily desperately looking for love and validation - a reason for being here for living. My heart has been ripped out, thrown here and there patched back up by well meaning therapists. I still haven't learned I recently showed a glimpse of this battered useless life preserver to someone and I fear that once again I am to be betrayed. Me, my heart, my soul, all that I am wish now for it all to be over. When pain outweighs suffering it's time. I'm not even frightened anymore I just don't have the strenght to heal my heart again.
  2. ThePhantomLady

    ThePhantomLady Safety and Support SF Supporter

    I'm sorry to hear you're not feeling well.

    I hope your fears are irrational. You deserve to be treated right!
  3. blacknblue

    blacknblue Well-Known Member

    Thanks Phantom Lady. I feel my fears are totally rational. I'm tired and overwhelmed and definitely had enough of this world. Too much pain and suffering in a world I can't get seem to understand