I'm disappointed in my life. I'm almost thirty, I'm single, I have a terrible social life, a non-existent love life, and it's pretty much been that way my whole life. I have no real life friends, and only a few online ones, all of which I seem to bore or annoy more than anything. I fell for someone last November, online of course... Ever since then, I have been nothing but a spiral down of depression... You would think this would be a good thing, but no, as with everything else, there has to be a terrible catch. She's 17....I don't even know what she looks like, she could of been 40+ and I wouldn't of cared, it was just the personality I fell for. Being that, I can't even try, I won't be that kinda person... Between my jobs hours, the town I live in, and my ineptitude in social skills, I can't seem to get anywhere...I just spend everyday trying to figure out a purpose, and I can't find any that are even reachable anymore. I'm not a good looking person, even when I was in great shape, I never received a compliment, I'm already going bald, and I really am not skilled at anything. Just to give an idea of how bad it is, that person I mentioned above, is the first person I've fallen for since I've left school... I just look at myself now, and I see nothing but regrets. I've always been responsible, payed my bills, did what i should of, I've never even been even pulled over, clean record, I own my car, I am buying a house, which was a big mistake.., and I'm decent with money, yet all I've seemed to accomplish is miss out on life. I know what I should do, but I have no self esteem, or confidence in myself, and in my current state, rejection wouldn't go well. It all just seems too much, I've failed to achieve even the basic aspects of life.