There's a song, called Oooh Child by the Five Stairsteps, that says "Oooohhhh child, things'll get brighter. Oooohhh child, things'll get easier." But is it true? I just feel so horrible right now! I really want to cut, even though I know my parents will get mad. But what can they really do? They can't ground me because I don't have friends and I don't go out. They'd yell at me and that'd be it. They'd ground me, sure, but it wouldn't do anything. I really want to take my arm and slice it up. Put cuts all up and down the part below the elbow. It'd make me feel so much better. I don't even know why I'm upset. There's really no reason. I just feel horrible and it's been this way for about a year! I just don't think there's any reason to wait for things to get better when there's no promise that they will.