So, i'm breaking my 'break' it seems. I'm ready to leave my body behind. I have fulfilled the biggest goals i had for my self. Found contempt about who i am. And now there's nothing i can gain. I'm taking a big test tomorrow, to tell me if i get into college. I feel certain to fail it. Then all my plans/hopes are pushed off, until summer. With nothing but broken dreams till then. I doubt i will hold on, if i fail this test. Beyond the test/work i need. I just can't see anything holding me here. I've done what i was born to, and finished it. My whole life, can logically end now. I just keep postponing the last part. I hope i can do it soon. So i can avoid the trouble of failing the test first.