I"m thinking about letting myself go tonight..Whenver I think about killing myself, I talk to my sister and she normally gives me a reason to save myself from hell..but If I have a nervous breakdown tonight..I might lose my mind and commit suicide..I don't really want to commit suicide because I don't want to go to hell..but when I'm feeling this depressed, you know..I WANT TO KILL MYSELF AT THIS TIME THOUGH..THE MAN I LOVE DOESN'T LOVE ME BACK, SO I MUST DIE, MAYBE THAT WILL MAKE HIM HAPPY BECAUSE HE OBVIOUSLY DOESN'T LIKE THAT IM IN LOVE WITH HIM!! SO ILL JUST DIED, IF HE DIDN'T WANT ME TO DIE THAT BADLY, HE WOULD LOVE ME AND MARRY ME, OR TELL ME HE WANTS TO BE WITH ME!! THE LOVE WOULD BE AS INTENSE FOR ME AS MINE IS FOR HIM..SO IM GOING TO GO AND LISTEN TO SOME DEPRESSING SONGS TO PROVOKE ME TO DO SO, ....:unsure: