I know I posted similar messages before, but this time I'm serious (I know I said that before as well but this time I'm just sick of it all). There has been a lot of stuff going on, and I don't think I can take it anymore. I'm thinking maybe sometime this week, like tonight or Friday, I might leave....who knows. I went to a counsellor at a hospital that specializes in mental health crisis issues, and I'm not kidding, I was dismissed within 20 minutes. WTF. I told the woman I was supposed to see about this, but she dismissed me and said mr problems weren't that bad. Ok, I have been cutting myself(not enough to do serious damage like leave scars), and attepted suicide about eight times in December. And when I went to see the person at the hospital(I didn't know who she was, it was just someone I got), she basically ignored me and said "Wel your problems aren't that bad" even after I showed her the cuts and told her about the big suicide attempt I made the day before(I overdosed on these pills I was prescribed big time). Anyway, sorry for the rant, just giving an idea on what our health care system is like, especially the mental health care system, in the place I live. The court case is still worrying me, it sounds stupid but I think the judge will take the woman's side given that she is older and is like 45 years old. Sorry everyone if it seems like I'm complaining, I've been told that before.