So even though when I started feeling suicidal last night, I called people and have sought help, I've found that in the last 24 hours since then I am actually going towards making more and more of a concrete plan as to how to do it. Has anyone else ever done that? Should I tell the people who are trying to help me that this is what is happening? Or will it make it seem as if I don't really want their help (maybe I don't...)? Or maybe I'm just too much of a coward to commit to either one of these options: to live or to die. How does one decide? How does anyone decide how they want to do it? What are the factors?