I just got out of the hospital for overdosing, i was in a coma for a few days and had to stay in the hospital over a week. When they found me I wasnt breathing. But Im saddend to say that yet again I am thinking of trying to end my life. I'm lost and alone and scared of living. I just recently lost my baby and boyfriend by suicide... I dont know why Im even alive anymore... I just dont want to be saved this time... This is serious... I dont really know if I want to die, but I know I want to end everything, the pain, the hurt, the guilt, the lies, being alone, everything. I just want to dissapear... but the only way to do that is to die.