A few days ago, I was in the water, outside, all by myself. I stayed under the water for 75 seconds, on my own will. I counted the minutes too, I was out there alone for 26 minutes. If I had decided to just stay under no one would have no known until it was too late. And now it's all I think about. Staying under the water... Forever. Thanks for reading, I just needed to write it somewhere I knew it was safe. I'm starting to worry about myself, but I don't want to get help.