I'm thinking about SH again. I'm not suicidal but I need help coping, and I know its a quick fix. Not to mention how much I miss it, I've been day dreaming about it, and right now I really want to, frankly I've been wanting to for a while. I've been putting it off, I've been trying to distract myself, to use other ways to cope, but in the end When I'm at school or lying in bed, I just really want to SH. it almost feels like a physical need, I've been SH free for almost two years now except once time, and I've found that I crave it every day. I'm realy stressed out right now and I do have a lot of things going on, and i realize that is a huge factor of why i might lose control, but I need someone to know how I'm feeling. If i tell anyone here ill be sent to another pych ward.