I’m considering suicide. I just don’t want any of my family members to find me first if I succeed, so I’m not sure where to do it. And yes, I do think this is the only way. I’m going to fail school for the second time and it’s clear that my parents are already just disappointed in me or don’t want anything of me anymore. I don’t think they’d love me unless I’ve achieved something but with everything going on in my head I don’t think it’s possible, so it’d be better if they didn’t have to deal with this. I’ve developed depression and an eating disorder toward the middle to end of my Sophomore year. I’ve tried to vent it somewhat to my friends but in the end I don’t want to involve these things in my friends’ lives; they have their own lives to live and if I interfere it’ll just make it hard for them. I also haven’t been in contact with almost all of them. Other than that, I’ve tried reaching out to my school counselor, we talked about therapy but I think she forgot to make the call. I don’t want to ask again, I’ve already asked for too many things before that, so I don’t think it’s fair to ask again. Plus, I don’t think my parents would agree. I tried to mention it to my mom but she’s a nurse and she said doctors only give you medication. With all of these things considered, I don’t think I have a choice. I feel trapped. I feel like I’ve already wasted my life and if I’m not good for anything, it’s a clear sign to end it.