Thank you again.
Today i see my psychologist and tomorrow my T.
but as i said, they have become unhelpful lately.
what could a crisis line do for me that my docs havent already tried and know me better?
i dont have friends i can talk to, and my family doesnt have to know.
im alone in this and maybe thats what i want.
i dont want temporary relief, i want permanent solution.
i dont even know why im here writing this down... i guess i just want to hold on a little longer... until i lose my mind.
self destruction is what i want. in any shape or form... and then i want this to end.