I thought it cant get any worse but today I really hit the bottom. These horrible thought's of death and dying are with me all the time. I am thinking about method's all day. I called a crisis hotline for the first time today it helped a little maybe. I tried to make an appointment to see a doc for med's but everybody has like 3 month's waiting time or they don't take my insurance I am so frustrated. Don't know where else to turn.