I've been having suicidal thoughts for the last 2 weeks, generally increasing in frequency as time progresses. Feeling severely depressed, I have shut myself off from the outside world, but have made attempts to resolve what problems I'm going through, mainly thanks to family members, and as a result have been put on a course of anti-depressants, but for me I don't feel like I'm making any progress, and have turned my thoughts so inwardly that I don't know how to escape from feeling like I have to escape. I don't know whether events in my life have led me here, or just a general build up of fear and paranoia have caused me to feel on the edge of making one decision or the other. The problem being i've been on this edge for a week, and I really am at a loss at what to do. I worry so much about life that i've managed to rob myself of one. I've talked to people, i've been given advice, but all I seem to be able to do is try and understand why I'm feeling the way I am, and I feel like I could write my way into infinity trying to understand how I feel. When you're scared of life as much as death, you only end up going in circles, while everything slowly begins to crumble around you. I feel like not making a choice is in itself the choice i've made. I don't know how much longer I can cope feeling this way.