So recently I have just been over thinking a lot. Mainly in how it pertains to the results I am starting to see with working out. I guess it is because my goal seems slightly nearer. So I wonder what is really changing in me? Then I think, it is only my appearance. Then I get depressed and want to kill myself. I guess my point is that whenever I am feeling good or happy. I suddenly think myself I to depression and suicide. I do the same thing when I a depressed, only that is no longer just thinking it is convincing myself to die. I wonder... what can I do to make it stop? I do not know how much longer I can resist.