40 yo virgin, lonely, unemployed, aspergers, adhd, live with parents and an overprotective schizophrenic mom and mentally abusive dad. I have a major fear of health professionals so help is probably out of the question. I'm have degrees in Engineering and Computers but I can't even work. I'm so depressed I can't even do my webdesign programming work anymore. I'm thinking of death thru food. I am a mystery shopper and can eat unlimited amounts of fast food. I am 165 lbs now and I work out 2 hours a day and ice skate. I want to destroy myself. I read that food can be deadly. That way it wont be as bad as something more obvious and gruesome. I hate myself and wish I wasn't born. I'm invisible to women. Women never talk to me. Why continue? Do you realize how low my confidence is being a virgin at my age?