I am so tired of my damn life. No one ever calls me, not even my family anymore. I am so lonely, just trying to do anything to keep my mind off of it all. I just play video games and do various hobbies between calls to work. I went to ask a woman out at church today that I was very interested in for the past year, and she had a new boyfriend. So that pretty much was another blow to my love life. I guess I am forever doomed to die as a guy who can not ever get a girlfriend. I have a plan to check out and I think I will proceed soon. There is no reason to believe that my life will ever change for the better. Other than my parents, and maybe my siblings, no one will notice me gone from this horrible world. Maybe God will take me into heaven, for surely this life on earth is nothing but hell and complete failure.