I agree with both Stranger1's points.
Don't make someone else do it :no:
you have no idea how devastating it is. Simply to witness human death in a compassionate way is difficult enough, and for those of us who have witnessed or heard the sound of death of a stranger. friend, or relative at their own hand (or not), this too will tear a life apart. It's so traumatic and scarring. Sights, sounds, smells, images, that never leave. That never ever will go away. The person will be haunted for life, good chance anyway. No one should be put in a position to be the one take someone out, nor should they be forced to witness it.
Good place to start is what Stranger1 says; can you come up with a list of reasons why you could stick around a bit?
Feeling pretty low today? Anything happening that is messing with your heart or head?
**gentle hug** left for you if you need it