so i guess i'm sort of back, but why?!?!?!?!?!?! i'm as invisible are your imaginary friends, it's killing me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i want to rant, i want to yell, i want to drop everything and just run away, i want to pack my stuff up, put in storage, not tell anyone where i'm going and just leave the country. And ya, ester i know, but whatever, i'm booking my fucking flight on monday, so you better still be fucking around...because if you aren't, i'm going to have to hurt myself and never ever trust anyone ever again!!!!!!!!!! i will go to the shopping mall and get lots of pills, stash them in my room, then wif you're not around i'm out of here :cry: i don't want to think like that, i'm so close to giving up, but i don't want to, i don't want to leave you behind, 
i'm so angry @ myself, and ya this is what i'm thinking and it fucking sucks. i'm sorry
i'm so angry @ myself, and ya this is what i'm thinking and it fucking sucks. i'm sorry