It's now 6 am. I've been up all night thinking. My life is already sad and pathetic. And I realized it will only get worse. I can only go downhill. Is it not logical to just end it now and save myself later torment? I have about two hours until everyone is up, and about three weeks worth of medication stored up. If I don't do it within these two hours I will be going somewhere where I'll be alone to make the choice for the rest of the day. Every time I try to think of a reason to live I can't.