Ok so ive never been a self harm type for some reason it just wasnt my cup of tea, but i need something. I am forced to stay alive cuz i cant die knowing that by dieing im disapointing my family once again so i need some kind of outlet and soon. Cant talk to anybody excet you guys here since i can actually be myself here, otherwise i lose ppl over stupid things, ive bottled it all up since i cant remember when and now i need to let it out one cut or burn or someway at a time i dont know just something to take my mind off of my life of dissapointinting everybody. God i thought i was ok after the last attemt but obviously i was wrong like usuall. Anyway i dont know what the best ways are to self harm and i know that you probably cant tell me but i need some kind of help here.