I have been living in hell since the 4 of February. My GF for 4,5 years ended the relationship. We where planning children, she even took tests before christmass just to see if she could have children, and she can. Then the nightmare started. And it's still goes on and on and on. I have lost almost 40 pounds since that day. I don't eat I don't drink. I do nothing. I'm a mute. I had to move home to my old parents. I started working on this Monday. But I'm sitting there as s zombie. I have had suicide thoughts before. And I'm having serious thoughts this time. Rope, letter, fixing my financial things. This crises in my life is unbareble. I'm 39 years old. And this is it. Im totally isolated. I don't speak with anyone. This nightmare must end soon. I can't take it any longer.