I meet her for the first time since May.
Have talked with her 2-3 times before that.
We are selling the apartment now, and she is making it ready, and stupid me went to see her.
We did talk for around 1 hour. Stupid me told her how I was feeling, about my therapist, about my father, about my family and the fact that I don't have any contact with my sisters.
She sat there more pretty than ever. I just wanted a hug, but she was talking about my family, that one of my sisters are weak, and also that It has been hard for her to, I doubt that. She was cleaning the apartment, I did not expect to meet me, I did not tell her that I was coming, but again it went pretty decent. I did not cry in front of her, I did not beg. I just told her how I was feeling. She was worried that I also will have an eating disorder, since I'm so skinny atm. Why does she worry about that?
I hope she has learned a lesson her, don't promise that we are going to have a family, don't ask someone to get married, and two months after she is telling me that I'm ****.
atm I'm drinking beer. The meeting was devastating for me. Crying is now a normal reaction in my life. I'm suprised if I don't cry one day.
She was telling me that she would have one of her friends visiting in our apartment tonight for coffee.
I went to nursing school with this girl, so I knew her before I meet my ex. I talked a little with her just after the BU, she was giving me bla bla answers.
I'm not sure what to do. I'm not moving forward, I'm stuck in my past, and I'm sinking...