Hi, just joined this forum today. I'm currently 22, been feeling suicidal since I was 11. I'm better now than I have ever been, but I need to find a way to stop all of these irrational fears and doubts about myself as well as the persistent suicidal thoughts. I feel like if I don't get over this now, people will walk all over me for the rest of my life. I've been abandoned by several friends in the past, partly because I was isolating myself, but also because I sort of scared them off by being so depressed. I was such a mess as a teenager (more so than most!). I have my best group of friends these days, and I'm slowly talking to them about my problems because just talking about it helps me feel better.