I'm just so tired and I've just got hit with this complete wave of sadness. I don't see the point in trying anymore. I want to give up. I wish it was that easy. I'm just disillusioned with the world, I don't want to be here anymore. I don't see my point. I fuck everything up. I'm such a fuck up. I'm such a nothing and a nobody and I am so damn dumb. I just want to isolate myself away. I get this sick pleasure in hurting myself, I feel vindicated when I know I've gotten what I deserve. I don't necessarily enjoy it but I know I should. I'm just this bad rotten sick person from the inside out. Why can't people see it? Maybe they can see it but they are too polite to say? I don't understand. With someone this disgusting there is no need to be polite. I don't deserve any human decency. I'm vile. I shouldn't exist, my existence is pointless. I'm worthless. I just want to give up. I don't FUCKING get it. Why can't everyone else see it? It's so fucking obvious. I fucking hate this bullshit.