why can't I be happy just as all those other people? i really feel neglected and worthless most of the time. like nobody cares really. i guess i deserved this anyway. i do nothing in order for people to give me attention. i am plain, boring, very unworthy of this existence. how i wish i can offer this life of mine to those who need it most. like the dying who thinks they already had a wonderful life lest they completely leave the world. i don't deserve this life. that's why i think i'm wanting to hurt myself again. please help! what can i do to compensate this kind of feeling? i don't understand. :dead: