Hello all, I found this forum really depressing. Reading how other people's thoughts form circular, self-defeating arguments just like mine is really hard to cope with. So I thought I'd add a few of my own: 1. I am getting old, nothing can stop me getting old, I am wasting my time worrying about getting old, because I am so old I am obviously not capable of stunning achievements anymore. 2. I am ugly, I am not getting younger. I will never get any more beautiful than I am now. 3. Everything I love will fail or die. 4. There is something inherently evil about me. 5. Because I am depressed I am a bore and a bad friend, a bad lover, a bad artist. 6. My happiness depends on having good work and good relationships and obviously I cannot do those things. 7. I cause things to go wrong. 8. I think of suicide without even having the strength to carry it out, so I fail at that tool. 9. I waste time going round and round in circles and wasting time depresses me. So much time has been wasted that it is obvious I'll never do anything of any worth now. 10. I accuse people of things that they haven't done. I anticipate the bad things they are going to do before they do them. I am scared of people and I am scared of the power they have over me. 11. I can't start anything and, if I start it, I can't finish it. 12. I can't forget anything. 13. My brain and my body are betraying me. I do not have any control over what they do. 14. If anything good happens to me it is surely a mistake, a mistake I have to pay for. 15. I have pissed my life away with this shit and now it's all I have and all I am. That's it for now... any thoughts?