Hello all. I'm glad I found this place! For some reason, in all my depression and suicidality, I never thought to look for a suicide forum. I've been on forums for eating disorders (I had EDNOS) and self-harm, but I've never been on one specifically for suicide support. I seem to have a problem with simply thinking about it too much. I obsess over suicide, all without any real intention of doing it any time soon. I probably have thoughts of suicide run through my head several dozens times a day. It's horrible, distressing. It happens even when I'm in a good mood. I am always thinking about it and I don't really know why. I can't decide whether I need to fight the thoughts or just let them run over, in a forum like this, or something. I just don't know what to do. I've found myself limited in what I can write about when it's taking up almost half of my inner thoughts. I usually self-harm or get drunk/high to deal with these thoughts, but I'm trying to make myself stop all of those habits at once. I don't know how this is going to work for me and whether it will even last. I just have to try: all of my coping mechanisms were killing me in a slow death anyway. Thanks for reading. I just had to vent.