I am angry, mostly for the part that I suspect I won't be able to just end this. I've been searching online for hours. Has anyone had luck with this? I was self admitted into a hospital, but I believe this ends up becoming an involuntary hold since it was under 72 hours. Does anyone know how this can be verified? I hate being here. I loathe being here. I've tried enough by this age that I know when it is time to call it quits. Things NEVER get better. We're never asked to be born, and had I known how this was going to turn out, I would have gone through with this 5 years ago. Not a day goes by where I don't think about it if I only had the means. I also feel I have absolutely no one I can talk with that won't get me committed, arrested or force me to go on living with an even more screwed up life. I just want to end myself, why is that so hard to understand? "Life isn't easy." I'm so sick of hearing the side talk. Leave life for everyone else then, I don't care. I'm as awful as they get and just let me get out of here.