i have felt pretty bad about my life lately. no friends, no job, no girlfriend whatsoever. my life was and still is going nowhere. i was thinking about suicide every day. i started to think. i came up with a mindstate that helps me a lot with living and my suicidal feelings. the funny thing is that it actually embraces suicide. i just tell myself that no matter what happens and no matter how bad my life gets, it ultimately doesn't matter. life is only a temporary thing, and you might as well try to make the best of it. no matter how horrible my life may get, i am going to just keep living. i try to kill the feelings of hopelessness, which were my main reason for feeling suicidal. i still keep the option of suicide open, but it is only an absolute last resort. unless i end up in prison for life, or something else that is _truly_ hopeless, i may as well keep going. life is only a temporary thing. there are going to be highs and lows. in 100 years nothing we say or do is going to matter at all. we may as well just live life and take what happens to us.