I honestly don't know what i'm supposed to do now... Had the whole suicide attempt, psychiatric hospital, new diagnosis thing. Got talking to this guy months ago, and he said all the right things, we got close organically, and we arranged to meet up. Everything was going so well, i had really fallen for him, he came down to where i live and we had such a good time. In heinsight i shouldn't have seen him so soon after i came out of hospital, in case it went wrong. Guess what it did go wrong, we were like a couple when he came down it was so lovely. Then he went home and said he didn't want to be with me anymore. It hurts like hell. I honestly don't want to be here anymore and i don't think i will be. It's past the stage of not being able to cope, I wasn't coping when i tried to kill myself last time and if anything things are worse now then they were then. I can't see a way out, it feels like suicide is my only option now. I've self harmed so much, it's not even slightly helping now. I don't want to be here anymore. Everything hurts so much I want the pain to stop, but even then i don't think i'd want to be here anymore.