I have been fighting killing myself for over a year now and regardless of how hard I try, things just keep getting worse. With all this stress and pressure, I cannot see this as a life worth living. There is no life at all - just people wanting you to hang around because of what they need you for but not out of any sincerity or caring about you as a person. You are either a source of money or someone that they need to lean on or ask for help, favors, etc. When I needed help, they all froze or turned their backs on me. This is where I am now and cannot see the reason why anyone would stick around. With family, professional, and financial pressure making your life absolutely suck and just outright painful to go through, I cannot see any valid excuse against ending it.