But this is a part of why I'm depressed. I went through college with a small group of girlfriends. We'd go to parties and they'd all get attention from guys and I never would. The thing is (I don't mean to sound vain, just being honest) I'm not that bad looking. It's like I have this personality or something, send some unintentional vibes or something, that make guys nervous and whenever I have face to face conversations with them, unless they've known me for a really long time, it's always awkward and I get the feeling they'd rather just get away from me. So I just kind of withdrew from dating/men in general, and now I'm supposedly an adult and I still don't know how to deal with guys most of the time... Working with them, etc. I want to have close male friendships. I just don't know how to have them... It's not like I'm a raging feminist or anything. I'm pretty easy-going. It's like I'm missing an obvious social gene or something. Like, guys who barely know me will tell me their worries/concerns like I'm their counselor, but when it comes to friendship or dating, they never go there. I don't understand why I have such issues with it, why I'm so clueless in this area, but I'm sure it's something I'm doing that I'm totally unaware of and I'm sick of it. Not that I'm really looking for a relationship at the moment, after all I'm severely depressed and trying to find a job, but some day down the road ifI ever get my act back together I WOULD like to at least have some guy friends around... blah. And to think some of my friends are married already.