No one listens. They can't wait til I'm done talking so they won't look bad in front of other people; listening to me earns being ridiculed for being my 'associate'. I'm ugly, deformed. My face looks like its been smashed in on one side. People see me and they want me to lose. They want me to be the center of ridicule, the punch line, etc., they HOPE AND EARMARK ME TO FAIL. Humans do not like to touch me; meaning physically or "spiritually". I'm so starved for contact. This is my life, who I am/ will always be and what I can look forward until I die. Whats the point.