I had an okay evening and morning, until a while ago. I'm very lonely and worried about me and about a few friends of mine. I'm worried that one of them may be in pain and the other one may be gone for a while. I keep losing people in my life due to their conditions and I hate that. I want them to be well. I don't want to lose them. I want to write a long post complaining about everything I'm hurt by, though I feel that I can't, because then I'll completely lose myself, so I'll stop here.