SO I reckon a few of you might have noticed I have not been posting the usaul mindless rubbish the past few weeks, well here goes. My sister gave birth prematuraly to a baby girl 3 weeks ago today, Chloe was born 2lbs 2ounces, and is now up to 3lbs. She is still in hospital and as my sister has other kids I volunteered to babysit each night after work to so her and her partner could be with Chloe, At the same time I had to go back to work. During all this my friend Sarah nearly died in my house of a drug overdose and I had to see her there lifeless, she is okay now but scared us into never doing drugs again, something we have all (bar one of my friends) stuck too. Because of everything that happened I accidentally missed my therapy appointment so I got a letter saying they can no longer see me and good luck blah! got de-registered from my doctors at the same time, so basically I have ran out of meds and a bit strung, I apologise I have not been there like I should I am not after sympathy or acceptance and ask a mod to close this thread I just wanted to let you know what I have been up to. I feel okay at the moment, I had a bad week, but I am still here fighting.