I'm so lonely all the time. I don't have a single friend. I don't know what to talk about with people. I never have anything in common with anyone. Its scary to sit at the same table with someone. I feel like I'm unlovable.. I feel like the reason I'm alone is because I'm a boring person. I don't talk. Words escape me. The internet is no exception. I've been on this forum reading and reading.. and another forum reading and putting in the random comment here or there, but I never get replies. or I just can't even say anything at all. I can't message people, or when they message me I run out of things to say. I can't keep anything alive. I guess I really am boring.. Why can't I think of anything to say?! Its impossible to get personal with anyone. I don't let anyone into my world. I guess its toxic shame. I feel so inadequate and disgusting. I'm so paranoid all the time when I'm around people, that their talking about me, having certain thoughts about me, disliking me and disgusted with me. This world sickens me with all its smiling faces, of people who are never lonely and can laugh and joke and relax around friends. They have big families, and husbands, and kids, and a life outside of work. I feel like I'm on another planet. Those are things I will NEVER experience!! I want to punch them all and scream at them!