I don't want to feel alone anymore. I can't take it. Everyday I put on a fake smile to hide behind. Yes, everything is okay. I'm fine. Why can't anyone see the pain behind my words? Why can't anyone hear me screaming so loud? I'm such a fuckup. What's the point in going on? I wish someone cared enough to notice I wish someone could see the truth hidden in my lies. I wish someone could see how I cry myself to sleep every night, how each day brings a harder and harder struggle to find a reason to live. I wish someone would really listen to me, then hug me and tell me everything will be alright. I'm sick of hearing "you're not alone." I want to feel it. But I don't deserve it. What am I but a small spec on this earth? This is it. I'm done.