this is it...

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Rukia, Nov 13, 2006.

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  1. Rukia

    Rukia Well-Known Member

    enough now....
    can't handle it anymore...
    take care every1!
  2. painfulbliss

    painfulbliss Well-Known Member

    hun please stay with us. were here for you. in time youll find that SF is a place full of really nice caring kind ppl. and were all here for u. please reply to this or pm i said this place is good to get out or feelings and talk to ppl. cause alot of us are going through the same thing. so hun please take care.
  3. Rukia

    Rukia Well-Known Member

    I have to wait until tomorrow. F**k it. I feel to guilty to let my classmates down. But when our assignment is finished, I'll go.
  4. Allo..

    Allo.. Well-Known Member

    What was it that changed you from feeling depressed, to wanting to end it?

    Were all here for you, will you please give us some time to try and help?
  5. Rukia

    Rukia Well-Known Member

    I've been suicidal for about 6 years, so its nothing new. I have no idea what happened, but I've started harming myself again and I'm just so tired.
    I'm not really depressed anymore, but I haven't been able to really "live" again.
    I finally manage to get good grades again, and have a lot of good friends, but I'm not enjoying it.
    I hate myself for wanting to die, because my life is quite good now. The only thing I'm missing is someone to love, and thats no big deal.
    I really want to live, but my thought are killing me..
  6. Erika

    Erika Account Closed

    Please dont go ahead with it.

    I love the poem by the way.
  7. Rukia

    Rukia Well-Known Member

    I can't see how I can live. Maybe tomorrow will be a better day.
  8. Erika

    Erika Account Closed

    It will. :)
  9. SowrongSowrong

    SowrongSowrong Active Member

    Hey rukia, i see you are from Norway too.
    I want to take my life everyday, but i just can't do it.
    It's like i always say it's enough but i keep on going,
    Carry On!
    You will find the light in your life!
    Reegards from someone that care about you
  10. Erika

    Erika Account Closed

    How are you toda Rukia?
  11. David

    David Active Member

    it saddens me whenever someone declared something like that in this forum. pm me if you want.
  12. Rukia

    Rukia Well-Known Member

    I'm not sure how I'm feeling today.
    I'm so f***ing calm, and that usually means that I'm ready to go. When I'm so down I kind of lose myself and let my body decide. Can only hope that I survive the day. Hate this feeling!
  13. Erika

    Erika Account Closed

    Calm is good isnt it.

    I think comparing yourself with people that live worse than you helps.

    What about finding a goal for yourself. Not that i know anything about your life.
  14. Rukia

    Rukia Well-Known Member

    Calm isn't good at all, not that kind of calm anyway.
    It's not that my life sucks or anything, I know that I should be happy, but I can't help wanting to die.
  15. Rukia

    Rukia Well-Known Member

    I'm not going to take my life. Not yet anyway.
    My grandmother ended up on hospital today, so I can't give my father any more worries.
    It's strange how I mange to be strong for others, when I can't even live for me.
  16. Erika

    Erika Account Closed

    How old are you if you don't mind me asking?

    I think there is a problem somewhere if you want to die. Maybe your lonely?

    I wanna die most of the times but im trying to hold on.
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