I'm 118lbs and I hate it * I hate myself everytime I eat * I hate my family everytime they try and make me eat * I hate everyone that says "You can eat what you want...you're so skinny" * I'M NOT SKINNY * Why do people lie so much? I don't think I am suicidal but I want to lose so much weight that I fade away. I want to be able to walk in the snow without leaving a footprint. I want to dance in between the raindrops that fall. I want to be so light that I float instead of walk. I haven't been diagnosed with anything because I'm good at keeping it a secret but people have started noticing recently. I don't know what I'll do if they try and make me to go to a doctor or something. I won't go. That's what.