...thanks for looking at this.
I never thought about suicide, to be honest I saw two people blow off their heads when I was younger. Once was when I was in 10th grade and the other was just last Sept.
I'm a reporter and my main beat are suicide, rape, death cases. I guess what I'm feeling right now is loneliness, you know?
I'm taking a massive workload in my college, 8 classes and one of them is a graduate level class. I took up a lot of classes so I could keep my mind off my heart. It's working out great.
However, I recently started to talk to Japanese College kids over a BBS and they're part of a suicide club.
I guess the whole point of this post is that maybe the man who spends his time in the darkness is finally becoming part of the darkness.
Every woman that asks me out now, I shoot down with a passion. I refuse to let them get close to me.
I guess it has to do with my high school years. I was't that guy that the girls would look at, I was shot down by every girl I ever asked out. Now as I got older more and more women ask me out.
I'm a pretty decent guy, I speak of justice and standing up for the weak. It's my job, and if I don't do it...no one else will.
Anyways, I'm just really afraid that the darkness inside me will gain control of my body. I'm afraid that the shadow will become my face and my face will become the shadow. I'm afraid that I'll lose everything.
I don't know what to do...I'm transfering to Tokyo in the middle of summer to gain my Masters. I'm being expected to keep the same work load for my scholarship. I'm afaird that all this stress will cause me to break.
Thanks,
~The Prince of Hope
I never thought about suicide, to be honest I saw two people blow off their heads when I was younger. Once was when I was in 10th grade and the other was just last Sept.
I'm a reporter and my main beat are suicide, rape, death cases. I guess what I'm feeling right now is loneliness, you know?
I'm taking a massive workload in my college, 8 classes and one of them is a graduate level class. I took up a lot of classes so I could keep my mind off my heart. It's working out great.
However, I recently started to talk to Japanese College kids over a BBS and they're part of a suicide club.
I guess the whole point of this post is that maybe the man who spends his time in the darkness is finally becoming part of the darkness.
Every woman that asks me out now, I shoot down with a passion. I refuse to let them get close to me.
I guess it has to do with my high school years. I was't that guy that the girls would look at, I was shot down by every girl I ever asked out. Now as I got older more and more women ask me out.
I'm a pretty decent guy, I speak of justice and standing up for the weak. It's my job, and if I don't do it...no one else will.
Anyways, I'm just really afraid that the darkness inside me will gain control of my body. I'm afraid that the shadow will become my face and my face will become the shadow. I'm afraid that I'll lose everything.
I don't know what to do...I'm transfering to Tokyo in the middle of summer to gain my Masters. I'm being expected to keep the same work load for my scholarship. I'm afaird that all this stress will cause me to break.
Thanks,
~The Prince of Hope