things go from bad to worse. no one to talk to irl about it. Since I lost the therapists because of insurance, I have sunk deeper and deeper. I have watched myself sinking deeper and deeper over the past 2 1/2 years. But in the past two months it has really accelerated. There comes a time, for me where the quality of life is so bad and no matter what I try, it just doesnt help, then I seriously question why would I stay alive? I am not a kid. Not even close. Agoraphobic with no support. I am so broken and tired. Everywhere I turn just doesnt help. I try to have hope. But I am running out of any reason. too alone. Too much pain. Am on medications. this is not about medication. Its about life circumstances. And no way out that I have been able to find. So tired of the pain. This is no way to live. It really is not living anyway. Its existing in hell. Thanks for reading this.