I want to harm so bad.. [Mod Edit - Methods/Excessively Graphic] But, somehow I have not done it yet. I feel really lonely and worthless and and in this moment anything can trigger me. I just hold on, and wayching movies... But I know... The urge is too big right know. I have searh in the apartment and find a scalpell... Its not gonna kill me to bleed a pound.. I just want to see the red... Too feel like i control my life and i can end it whenevner I want to. I need to feel pain.. This is hopeless... I hate what I have become. If I told anyone they would have hated me for destroying my body, ... Well, I can't stop right know... I just need a break from everything.. From beeing invisibel... From beein a freak... From being a worthless,,, the harm is just a something I deserve anyway... Oh... I just wish I never was born sometimes..