I don't understand anything about life anymore. It has become a blank page to me now. Everything is falling apart, my sister is suicidal, I think she plans to attempt it, but I don't know how to tell anyone, how stupid is that? I need to tell someone before it is too late. Our whole house and family is just mad. Bonkers. Off the tracks comepletely crazy! I don't know my dad, my mom is in a mental home, my sister is suicidal so am I. I live with my grandparents. I need help! I'm not coping well with any of this. Just I wan't to cry. My head is so fucked up! HELP! JUST FUCKING HELP! PLEASE! i'm breaking down! Going Crazy! this is the only place I can come now. The only place I trust! I need to cry so bad right now, but I can't, I can't let my family know i'm depressed again, I pretend to be ok, everyday I just walk round with the biggest fake smile ever! I'm crazy. Oh god, whats happening? Can I get through this? I don't want to end up back in the hospital again. I'm so pissed off that the pills didn't work! I could be at piece now with Maddie! but no I was stupid and spoke to my friend. meh I won't make that mistake again. Forget it.