I don't really know why I'm typing this. I don't expect anybody who reads this will actually care. Life has dealt me a few hard knocks...more than a few actually. My family is not the supportive family I hoped they would be. They are very close minded, extremely racist, sexist and are very big believers in Christianity. I myself have found throughout the years that Christianity is not the path in life I wish to follow and have become Buddhist. I don't hate Christians or anything like that, I just don't believe in Christianity anymore. My parents make me go to church anyway every Sunday where I feel like a complete liar the whole time. I hate going to church because it brings back painful memories of when I was molested by a priest in my church. My parents can't comprehend this, and make me go anyway. Everything has been getting worse and worse over the past few years and after years of self harm, alcohol abuse, bad harmful relationships I have decided that I can't take anymore and that I am going to end my life. I can't see how it will get any better from here. I have no one to support me, the antidepressants aren't working and my psychologist isn't helping me at all. School is so demanding because I'm in my senior year and I know I only have a few more months to go but I can't hold on any longer. So this is my last shot. If I can't get my life back on track by the end of this year, I'm going to kill myself.