Today was my birthday and nobody even noticed. I just wish there was 1 person who wanted to give me a hug on my birthday. Big thanks to Petal and some others who are really great here. I posted months ago that I was selling everything I had and destroying the rest so nobody would profit from my demise since nobody deserves it and I'm finally at that point. I basically have nothing now and am about to be homeless and another meaningless birthday passing is as good of a sign as any. I feel so bad for my cats. They will have no one now, but animals forget and move on, unlike me. Almost 3 years since my ex left me and I still feel like vomiting every day. Time doesn't make things better and you have to want to help yourself. You also need to have people who care about you and I have no one. My soul was destroyed the day she left and it has never even started to recover. My only advice to you all is never go all in with another person and make them your everything. Put yourself first and others second. I don't know if I'll be back here but I have a lot to decide on tomorrow. I'm going to go cry myself to sleep like a little bitch who couldn't even handle being a man. Take care guys.