At age 29 I have endured so much emotional pain I simply do not see a light out of the tunnel. In the past five years I have dealt with several life changing events including several failed relationships and the loss of a job. I have had personality issues for many years and only now do I realize that i have a problem (BPD I think). I don't think anything can be done at all I have broken to many bridges in life and too much damaged has occured. I feel that an end to this madness would be somewhat appopriate regardless of how my family feels, I am the one experiencing the pain, not them. It is a matter of time until the inevitable happens.