this is the reason why i dont want anyone to see my weakness. they will all leave except for my parents. i want to change. before when i dont know how to communicate in real life. people around me, dont want to be with me because i dont know how to communicate & the limitations. im sorry, if im needy here on net. i cant see the facial & body reactions so i dont know if im say something bad. im insecured here on net. im bad in english & from the different culture. i know how to communicate in real life. not here. im sorry i cant say my mental problem to my friends because depression here is not considered as a sickness. i dont want them to leave me or starting thinking im crazy. i tried different forums i can to have friends on net. everytime im attempting the end is "im needy" so they starting to ignore or telling me things that im faking so i can get attentions. i want to have a conversation when im in good mood or not depress. i cant, im not from western country. i learned communication skills so late. i cant command anyone here or other forums to understand because i know you have all issues.