People keep telling me to post how I really feel and let it out, saying it will make me feel better. Well, here it is. I am angry, sad and ugly. I hate myself. I cant improve on my art, no matter how much I practice, I got into too it too f-ing late and now I know I wont improve or catch up with everyone else who is so much better than me and I know even if I get accepted to a better college I wont ever get a job because my portfolio will stick suck. I am too far behind everyone else, I will never be a professional graphic design, illustrator or anything. I've tried everything. I am so f-ing tired of hearing what you people say, it's the same thing over and over. I've tried, tried raising my confidence, tried liking myself, tried practicing, tried tried tried F-ING!! tried and I wish I could actually curse on this forum. I hate myself, I hate all of you I know deep down no matter how hard I try I wont ever accomplish my dream and I keep thinking of horribly gorey ways to kill myself because I deserve to feel anguish and pain in the last seconds before I die. Now go to hell, read my signature! And stop telling me the same damn crap everyone else does!!!!!!!!!!!!!!