Hi, I'm new to this forum. I don't know if anyone can understand this. I am suicidal. Not in the respect that I want to kill myself. No, I do not want to commit a murder, which it would be if I killed myself. I fully understand that it would be murder if I did this act. But I want to die, and I am doing everything I can to achieve this without actually 'committing suicide' if that makes sense. I am a very spiritual person. I have a very close relationship with God as I understand Him. (I won't get into details about my beliefs because this isn't the place for it). But I am not religious, I do not believe in hell, except for what we create for ourselves here on this earth. I believe in reincarnation and all that stuff. This is what gets me: I love people, so much. I even learned to love myself recently. So why do I want to die? I just want to die so I can move on. I love the earth, I love animals, nature, etc. But I want out. I want out of all of this. I am completely useless here, nobody wants me or wants my help. Can anyone truly identify with this problem? Can anyone relate?